Just wanting a day with a peace of mind… no thoughts whatsoever.. nothing to think or worry about.. just a peaceful evening would be nice.. even just once..
Its a nice night.. havent been out this late in the city for a long while.. crowded.. lively.. bright lights.. it could have been better..
Sigh.. just not the same.. =.. it feels more tiring.. who cries and laughs at the same time? I guess im going crazy..
I guess its something im really good at… pushing all the people important to me away… specially when they get to close… i dont know why is it so hard… why am i like this… why cant i just be likebother people..be normal and keep those important to me close… =\
Sometimes no matter how much your mind explains… the heart doesnt understands… it just feels all these emotions you wish you dont have to…
Just when you wanna be yourself.. you realise you can’t.. you have to be someone else for everyone’s sake.. you just have to forget urself..
I guess there just comes a point in life where you just say.. i dont care.. i wish i didnt care.. i wish i dont feel to care..
Always have to be on “defense mode”?..
Sometimes… things need to get worse before it gets better…
Its painful.. i dont know why… i tried to ignore it but it hurts… it hurts to know theres a limit on what i can do and will never be enough for you… it hurts to accept the truth that there is someone who can always do and treat u better… i want to forget about it but it hurts… it hurts that i cant breath… each breath is too much effort… so i just lay here… hoping d pain wud go away somehow…
Sometimes.. the people who you expect to understand you the most are the first ones to judge you..
Without me realising… you have become an important part of my life whom i cant live without… without you my life is incomplete… without you its empty… without you its lonely… i can only be happy when youre here… but if im the cause of ur sadness… how long can i hold on?